Today is such an off day. I feel so lonely and empty. Maybe it's the lack of sleep, or the need for a special male touch, something that I haven't had in what feels like for me a long time. My mind and body needs it, even if its non-sexual. Just the quiet touch of a male, nestled in a warm protective embrace that fills me with peace and that 'home' feeling that i haven't felt in an even longer time.
I want that feeling again, want to be able to just lay on the couch and have my head on his lap and his hand in my hair. Or snuggled up next to him in bed or something, just listening to each other breathe. I want to be encircled in an embrace that i know wont let me go, wont abandon me, will give me the love that i so desperately need.
Thing is, the one person's touch that i REALLY want, that my heart and body want. . . is too far away. I mean we talk every night, text each other every day that we can. But . . . its not the same as someone that i can go up to and touch and hug and . . . Yeah. . . I'm totally screwed.
*Sighs and rubs face*
What to do what to do??
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