Service Submissive/Slave Curiosity

So after this past weekend with Him, i've started to gain a curiosity 

for service submission... or maybe a slave girl.

MAYBE

At first, i thought slavery would be something that i was whole heartedly against, since my mind automatically puts "slavery" into the definition that has dominated through history.  Forced into servitude, treated poorly; used hard, put away wet, and taken out again before fully dry.  Traded hands like so much meat, without regards to feelings or emotions of the one being traded.  Granted i realize that most Gor novels (of which i have read none, but i am thinking of obtaining), have such trades.  But in reality it may not always be the case.

When i was with Him, and even before, i checked out His profile on FetLife and saw that he did indeed like Gorean, and the new position that he taught me (I know Nadu and the whipping position, as well as a few others) put me in more peace and submission that i realized.  I had taken Nadu with scott, though i didn't know what it was then, and did feel quiet, but not FULLY as with Him.  I took the simplest joy in washing Him in the shower, and serving Him while at the party, holding His drink as He instructed, falling to my knees at the snap of His fingers.  Even Mistress P noticed that i was more serene and at peace as comparative to other times She and i had seen each other at parties.  And i treasured that peace and tranquility, even in the midst of a pulsing fetish party amidst dancing and scenes.

If i could have that peace and serenity ALL the time as a submissive in a relationship, i know i'd feel so much better.  I'd still want and need that ability to switch, and to let my wolf out and assert Herself, because She's never too happy if She stays suppressed for a long time.

It will be something that I will continue to research, and maybe, hopefully be able to explore more with Him, if He is willing to teach me properly, seeing as how i have a feeling that the last "dom" that was trying to "teach" me didn't do a very good job, seeing as how i learned MORE from reading a book than him physically teaching me.

We will see.