Are My Expectations Too High?

I'm pretty sure that I know what I want in my "Ideal Man/Mate":

• 1. Kinky

I know i know, i can hear you say" No fucking shit sherlock."

I know that being on a kink/fetish/BDSM site that is what one would require, but at the same time, one has to understand what I'm wanting and needing. I have a small Dominant side that tends to come out from time to time (mostly with females, but with the right male it can come out as well), and I want a Dominant male, or if anything a Dom/sub switch, that will allow me to let me explore the Dominant part of my psyche. I want the peace that i experienced last month in Serving a Dom friend of mine. The Dominant that can bring that out in me, and allow me to switch is One that i would treasure.
He also needs to be a patient teacher. It takes a while for me sometimes to "get" something, and with my mental and emotional issues, it makes things a little harder. Gentle and coaxing questions and/or statements help bring things out, or allowing me to write things out (which ends up being easier) and then sharing the essay and clarifying points if need be.

• 2. Rennie/SCA Man

Its not something that ANYONE who has it in their blood will ever "grow out of". This person has been part of this life for a long time, and passionate about it. I realize that SCA is FAR from Faire (just establishing that fact before Vikingrader and Seaghdha and possibly others start hollering at me), but either or would be a massive plus.

• 3. Wolf

My wolf, my beautiful beautiful ebony furred and gilded eyed wolf also needs someone who is just as strong, if not stronger than her, to bring her in line. But this wolf also needs to know the TRUE meaning of being a wolf. Puts Pack above all else, protecting and aiding fellow pack mates as needed. Not using the claim of having a "wolf" as an excuse to excessively fuck their way through a line of females. Yeah wont fly with me.

• 4. Touch/PDA

I am a physical person, and i have an INTENSE need to be able to touch the person I am with. PDA i also have no problems with, and have no problem grabbing my S/O's ass or making an obvious/less than obvious pass at their cock. Touch is a vital part of my relationship with anyone. All of my friends who have known me long enough know that a mere "i'm behind you" isn't enough, that i have to have that connection with my words, or it'd just feel weird to me. A hug is amazingly reassuring and comforting, to both give and receive. My favorite thing to do, especially with taller males is to come up behind Him and hug Him from behind; nestling my cheek between their shoulder blades if possible.

• 5. Looks

As shallow as it may sound, i still want Him to be handsome, to my standards. And it sometimes fluctuates, but the one thing that seems to remain constant in the end is a male that is taller than i am with moving eyes, hair long enough to wrap my fingers in it or run my fingers through it.

 Granted, an awesome cock to satisfy me adds to it. ~weg~

All in all, to me it feels like I'm asking too much to find a Man/Dom/Master who retains all of these qualities. I've found men and Dominants who retain a quality here and there, but not all. I'm not very into a Poly relationship, as i am pretty monogamous in my relationships.

Might open things up if both parties were secure in the standing of the relationship... but that's long into the future.

I hope and pray that the One will come along, and know that my words are mean't for Him, to know that i am here, waiting (less than patiently) for Him to come along and nurture me and help me in the ways that only He can.

Goddess Hear My Plea...

~Rose