The Wolf Within - Summary of Past Posts in my LJ

The Wolf Within - Part 1

A woman sits encircled by candles, a bowl of incense, The silent smoke curling upwards, her rhythmic breathing taking the scent deep into her lungs as she cleared her mind. She called silently to the beast that dwelt within her, the she-wolf. She could feel the black furred form lift her head at her call, her ice blue eyes startling against her dark fur. She padded out on silent paws, her ears perked forward, tail neutral.

They never truly got along, the woman and her wolf, and it was time to come to an understanding, of sorts.

With a lunge, the wolf materialized into the circle of candles, sitting in front of the woman, her head cocked to one side. It's about time. The woman smiled at the feeling inside her head, which translated into words.

"Well you left me no choice after you ran like that. Didn't really give me time to fully come into my mind again." The wolf huffed, her tail tocking.

What was I supposed to do? He wasn't what I needed. With a wolf snort she laid down. At least not what we thought I would need.

"You know Bara's back in town right?" The woman knew that that would catch the wolfess's interests.

Her ears perked forward again, her tail lifting in interest, the feeling of curiosity mixed with mostly suppressed excitement. There were no need for words to be formed, for both aspects were happy to know that a dear and old friend was slightly back in the mural of their lives. The wolf only had met glimpses of the wolf that lived inside of the human counterpart that was the woman's old friend.

"Would you promise me one thing?" The woman asked, watching the wolf's expressive body language intently. The she wolf shifted and licked her chops, her fur shivering as she shivered away a nonexistent bug. Taking that as an acquiescence to at least try, the woman presses onwards. "Try to behave at least as best you can until he can help us."

The wolfess gave a lupine shrug. She wasn't going to promise anything, and the woman knew that that was the best that she could get out of her, at least right now. The woman opened her arms, an invitation and acceptance. The she-wolf stood and walked over to face the woman, the scent of forest, fall and fresh turned earth filling the woman's nose before the wolf seemed to walk through her, back into the den where she stayed.

The Wolf Within - Part 2

It would be at least another month before the woman could meet her old friend. The she wolf would pace inside her as they talked, wandering as close to the surface as the woman allowed her. She sent her reactions to the woman, and normally she would laugh and relay those reactions to him.

Rose, for that was the woman’s name, was thrilled to be speaking to her old friend Edward again, as he had been one of her first good friends in middle school. Granted, he had his faults; the primary one being that he tended to be a pathological liar. But it was something that she was used to coming from him; she didn’t particularly like it, but she was used to it. They would chat, text, and instant message back and forth, laughing, reminiscing and sending pithy comments back and forth over the lines.

One thing she seriously doubted about him was whether he would truly make an effort to come and visit her when he came down for the holiday. Though he swore up and down that he would make the effort, she was already preparing herself for getting hurt. She also felt at times that he was more interested in helping to ‘tame’ her unruly wolf than reconnecting. But a small part of her reminded her that she still wished for some sort of completion of what had happened that one night in high school; the night that she sat astride his lap after a song and kissed him, the thrill of victory singing through her veins. A half smile spreads across her visage as she recalled it, a sly look in her eyes.



Perhaps there could be a completion of that scenario, or perhaps things would not progress at all. Only Fate knows the web She weaves.

The Wolf Within - Part 3

Again Rose sits, her eyes closed and breathing calm as she called her wolf forth. It was easy this time, as she was prowling close to the surface, her tail thrashing and ears twitching. Rose wrinkled her brown and shifted in discomfort before feeling the she wolf emerge.

Opening her eyes Rose half glared at the wolf pacing in front of her. "That wasn't nice you know."

The wolf looked at her and shook her head, giving a half snarl, half huff. 'What was I supposed to do?'

Rose snorted, "Like YOU were the only entity that wanted more, wanted to take."

Rose was referring of course to the events that had transpired previously. Finally their friend Edward had come home and Rose had gone to visit him after she had gotten out of work, the she wolf wagging her tail excitedly all the way. Once there the excitement felt in the twin hearts beat in tune, giving a heartfelt greeting and hugs. As the night progressed the she wolf kept urging Rose to stand from the bench she was sitting on and walk through the smoke of his cigarette and take what she wanted, especially after he bared his stomach at her.

Rose felt her eyes go feral and her closed hand could not hide the smile that crept along her face, and Edward remarked to her, "Don't look at me as if I'm food. I'm the one that eats the kill."

A chuckle rose from her throat "You think so huh?"

"Oh no I don't think, I KNOW so."

Rose laughed and dared Edward to prove it. Though he wished he could, the presence of his family presented an issue that was hard to work around.

By then end of the night the she wolf was restless and close to the surface, and as Rose hugged Edward goodbye, the she wolf took over and snarled at him, a few times. Edward laughed and warned them both multiple times that being a tease to him and Bara would end up in something that Rose and she would regret later. The wolf did not care and snarl huffed at him twice more. With a wry smile Edward looked at her and said, "You asked for it," and promptly fisted his hand in her hair and clenched his jaw on her neck and windpipe.

Rose felt like she was flying and inside the she wolf howled in pleasure, the mixture of pain and pleasure and the placement of the bite nearly sending them both into subspace. Rose had no doubt that Edward could feel and hear their want through the way she arched into him. Rose's eyes fluttered as he lifted his head and they both grinned.

After exchanging a few pleasantries, Rose took her leave, promising to come back to hang out again soon. The wolf still paced in her, her tail thrashing and frustration emanating from every fiber. She wanted more, wanted to see Bara fully, hear his growls and snarls, and feel the sharpness of his teeth in their flesh once more.

"Soon enough," Rose replied to those feelings, even as she could feel things inside of her tighten. "Soon enough we will meet the true Bara."

Only slightly contented the she wolf returned gently back into Rose, staying near the surface, just in case.