I mean REALLY....
I met a Dom from collarme last Friday for breakfast after talking with him via email, IM and phone... Come to find out he's a little too old for me and much too cocky and self inflated for my taste. I had been talking to one of his mutual friends and she asked for an honest opinion and why i didn't think that it would have worked out...
The age difference was a factor. (...) I didn't get the feeling from him that i'm looking for. . . I think the lack of humility also helped me not feeling he was the right Dom for me. Granted i know that sometimes Doms aren't entirely humble... but needing to toot their own horn really isn't attractive to me.
I went on to say:
Cocky doesn't endear me to anyone though. . . While its nice to watch the peacocks strut... the grandstanding never really impresses anyone... especially someone like me.
She told me to take a look at my main picture and then re read what i wrote and asked if she saw what she saw... which is stupid because EVERYONE perceives things differently.
I replied and explained as such:
I see a young woman dancing to the sound of drums, doumbeks and zills, as well as it being a particularly good photo of me in motion. Considering it was a vanilla event, the photo was cropped/edited as best as i could to protect the innocent. There is one particular photo that i would LOVE to post as it features not only myself but the other drummers of the circle VERY well... but again, seeing as how it was a vanilla event, i did not post it.
If you want to call that peacocking, then so be it, that is your prerogative. Unlike some members that i have seen here and on Fetlife, i actually respect the fact that some of my friends and acquaintances are not part of the life and including their faces in a photo on such a site is disrespectful of them.
I don't dance for anyone, i dance for myself, and dance has been my passion ever since i was little.
I am not the best, nor do i think i am one of the worst. I have a lot of passion for dance, and some skill. There are others in the troupe that i am with that are far better than me, and some that are far worse. But we all have our strengths, weaknesses and different dance backgrounds if at all.
But you can feel free to judge me as you will, because even though i may not be above it all, i certainly wont let it bother me. I know who and what i am and how i choose to live my life.
Not everyone will like me, and not everyone will love me.... but i cherish the friends that i have, old, new, and in between.
I mean come ON... i tell it like i see it, have it be MY personal experience and opinion and I get bashed for it...?? REALLY??
Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and yes some people get judged for them but cut me a break...
oyi...
I need more coffee...
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